027: Trying My Best

"I have struggled with chonic endometrious psin since the age of 10. In 2012 I could not take the pain anymore and I waned to die so I swallowed a ounce of blow and my husband found me having a seizure. I had to be air flighted to a hospital and died in the ambulance from a heart attack and was then bought back to life. My lung was collapsed and I had brain damage and spent a month in a coma very sick. Once I got out of the hospital I did years of therapy and also got back on my prescription adhd meds and got on anti anxiety meds. Today I still struggle with wanting to kill my self from my endometriosis pain and I have had 5 surgeries in the past 5 year and also a hysterectomy for my endometriosis. I am trying my best to find the positive in all of this but I am tired of being in pain and sad that I can not have anymore kids. I am trying my best to stay alive because of my son husband and cats. Right now the only thing keeping happy is weightlifting and my amazing coach. I am thankful for my family, my job as a dancer and my job at the restaurant. The owner of the restaurant I work at hung him self in the building recently and today is his celebration of life. I wish Zak was still here with us and I feel bad he was struggling emotionally." 

-Christina Fosnock