024: 15 Years Sober

"As a very young child I was molested. This happened for more years than I can remember. Then after finally getting distance from my abuser my mother allowed a 21 year old drunk to move into our home and he and his friends raped me. I became so depressed that I could no longer trust anyone around me to protect me. I started partying and using alcohol to numb the pain. It got worse when I became legal drinking age. I drank 7 days a week to black out. Wanted to die from alcohol poisoning and tried too many times to count. It never happened for me despite my efforts. Then I discovered at 24 that I was 15 weeks pregnant and that little person growing inside me made me realize I now had a reason to try to live. I got sober. Went to counseling. Spent 10 years working with a trauma therapist, and underwent hypnotherapy to safely deal with a manage the bad parts of the traumas I went through. I haven’t always made good life choices but seeking help and talking to someone I had to learn to trust taught me that my life was worth living. I do still have bad days but I do now have the tools to make it through those days without attempting to kill myself and I am proud to say am 15 years sober."

-Anonymous