"I lived a normal happy childhood - always playing outside with friends and competing in as many sports as I could. That all changed my freshman year of high school when my best friend died by suicide. She was the happiest person I had known. She was the class clown who never took anything too serious. From the outside it looked like she lived life to the fullest. Always laughing and always causing trouble. For a year all I knew was that she was gone. No answers, not even aware it was suicide. My life turned upside down and I had no support anywhere I turned. For 7 years I fell into the darkest place, until I found comfort in the thought of reuniting with my best friend. It was passive but I had accepted that I was delaying the inevitable, one day I knew I would lose my fight. And one day everything changed again. My medication felt like it hit a switch. I woke up feeling like a new person. 6 months later, I learned what happiness felt like. I’m experiencing emotions I never got to experience past 14 years old. It does get better. It may take a long time but I promise you, it can. I never thought I would get any relief let alone happiness and joy. Her loss is still so painful, but my perspective has completely changed now that I can see the other side. Grief is a beautiful thing, the depth of our sorrow is a reflection of how deeply we loved. Whether you are grieving a loss of a person, the life you feel like you were meant to live, or the past you who you desperately want to return to. Your perspective can change, and your joy can too. ❤️🩹"
-Anonymous
